Just a few features of my anxiety
- Me: *gets on bus* omg everyone is watching me and judging me and they're going to laugh when the bus starts and im not sitting down, omg dont put your ticket in the wrong way or everyone will judge you and laugh at you.
- Me: *goes to pay for shopping* omg what if I dont have enough money? *counts money out 20 times* what if I look stupid, or say the wrong thing? am I standing in the right spot even? What if someone else wants to get past and im in the way, omg.
- Me: *says hey to someone online* omg, they arent replying, holy shit why am I so annoying? what if they tell their friends how annoying and lame I am? Why am I like this, holy shit.
- Me: *meets someone new* What if they dont like me and dont want me to be around, I shouldnt have met them, im going to be a burden, they're probably critisizing me right now, why am I the way I am?
aaah so my university emailed me like “hey you forgot to hand in your tax forms do that or else your admission decision is considered tentative”
so my mother faxed over the W-2 and i was anxious like “omg it’s late they’re gonna revise the already dismal amount they awarded”
but jokes on me because they’re now giving me $10,000 dollars per semester as a university grant, so that’s 20K every year that i don’t need to pay back
i’m very happy. yay for being poor
